Life getting in the way for me recently has meant that loss has weighed me down. This is how I’ve felt the past few weeks. I’ve been unable to move, in way. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I’ve been functioning but saying good-bye to my Gram was difficult. I feel like I’ve been walking around in a haze and carrying an extra 100 pounds. The sorrow and grief is still heavy but I’m now enjoying the memories.
The day I received the news of her passing I took the afternoon off. I honestly needed “me” time. I created a necklace with her everyday jewelry that she gave me a few years ago.
I took her watch that no longer kept time, sterling silver earrings (some of which I very clearly remember helping her put on) and chose to also hang a couple of rings that I lovingly remember her wearing often. Her favorite color was purple so I wire wrapped amethyst beads to make the chain. I’ve worn the necklace often. It jingles when I walk and makes me think she’s with me.
Gram, here’s to living the life you chose, for always speaking your mind, and sharing your beliefs. Most of all, for loving us, all - unconditionally. You are missed. Toodaloo, Gram. ♥♥♥♥♥